holistic treatment for depression and anxiety
“Lets do the time warp again”… at least that is how
it felt to me. Stuck in the same old
time frame again. After all, my last
blog was dated August, 2011 (see www.yeslifeisworthliving.blogspot.com
to see what I am talking about). What
happened between then and now that pulled me right off the blog circuit? Did I tire of writing? Was there nothing to say? Had I completely healed and therefore what
else could I say? NO, NO and NO!! I simply took a step backwards and had to collect
myself. My body once again was my voice –
the voice that I needed to remind me that I had more inner work to do. This was the voice that I ignored the first
go around in 2007-2008 as I didn’t realize at that time the power between the
mind and body. I feared that I would
repeat another horrible time and questioned everything my body was about. Why?
How? It was little comfort to
find out that this time the message came in the form of the Epstein Barr virus
– not depression - I mean, yes, glad it
wasn’t depression as I wasn’t going “there” again, however, now my body decided
it would challenge me once again. I
mean, what’s a little chronic fatigue, weakness, trembling hands and feet, aches
all mixed in with tears that just appeared like an uncontrollable leaky faucet? Come on, really? At first, I just caved to this virus,
forgetting all I had learned. I barely got
through work just to come home and collapse.
No strength to even eat. Fearful
of what was happening with my body, I woke up one day and it was like – hello! Hey, I created this, I can heal this! Wasn’t I aware of the power of the mind to the
body? Didn’t I remember all the
teachings and healing I have been working on up to this point?? So, this was my test and I was determined to
ace this test. I had the tools - now my
body was telling me that I needed to apply forgiveness to my life. Yes, forgiveness. The little voice inside was my inner guidance
directing my next act in my life. It
told me I should take time to work on forgiveness. I was lead to a great book on the subject - “Radical Forgiveness” by Colin
Tipping. The worksheets in the back of
the book were the most helpful, sometimes I completed two or three on one
person before I knew I had let go of any harboring forgiveness issues. It was like a paper weight being lifted off
of my back. A profound sense of “ah” hit
me. As each worksheet was completed, I
felt myself becoming stronger - physically and mentally. I knew I
was the boss of me and nothing could take me down. As I worked on my issues, I started to
incorporate other forms of healing into my life. I could actually make it to my yoga studio to
practice a Korean form of yoga which incorporated energy work and using the acupressure
points in my body (we have 365 of them) to start to heal on a physical
level. Needless to say, within 3 weeks
of working on my inner and outer self, I healed. My strength, energy and vitality returned. It was amazing to experience as just a few
weeks earlier I thought I wouldn’t be able to crawl out of this hole. I knew this was just the beginning of an
incredible adventure in my life…all starting with listening to my body and
forgiving. “Forgiveness will not be possible until compassion is born in your
heart.” ~Thich Nhat Hanh